Wednesday, October 14, 2020

My miscarriage

It all started after the Super Bowl. I was feeling very off and I thought I should take a pregnancy test. It came back positive and we were extatic we went in around the 1st of March    For  An ultrasoundFound out that the baby didn't have a heart beat so I went in for a D &c. I was so nervous I felt like my whole world came to an end. It was the worst experience I've ever felt I felt likeI had a block of cement sitting on my chest.My heart was broken. Am I thought the only thing I could do was talk about it. But I had no one to talk to John didn't understand. I felt like there was alone in all of this. Now I'm   Depressed from how sad I feel that I don't have my baby with me. We just past its due date and it was the hardest day of my life. I felt like I had no reason for living. On a side note I am not going to take my own life it just felt like that .
 If anyone has ever had a miscarriage knows what I am going through there's no one to talk to, thirst no 1 who understands,  And when you tried to talk to your husband About the miscarriage he doesn't understand what is going on in your mind. He wants to help but doesn't understand how or doesn't know how. 
I wish I had someone to talk to you like a counsellor or someone who knows so I blog
 I know how many people read this blog but it's my outlet  To write down what isgoing on in my brain and to help me to Process.

 Thank you to all who are reading wherever you are feel free to leave me a comment love you all talk to  You soon.

Love,
 Shelley Stone