I've been having a really hard time lately asking and wondering why the things that have happened in my life have happened. I've been thinking about what I'm here to do with my life and still I don't know. I'm angry at God. I'm finding it very difficult to love Him especially taking people away from me. My baby, my husbands, and some close friends.
I'm not asking for sympathy or for someone to fix it. I just need people to understand why I don't want to be around. I'm not trying to hurt anyone. I think I need to fix myself somehow.
I'm jealous of my parents and my siblings cause they have their kids and spouses. It's not fair that they have those things and I do not. It's hard to see them with their kids when that is all I've ever wanted. Even when I did become pregnant I lost it. I've become a home body and just want to be at home most of the time. I'm sorry if I've hurt anyone by not coming around.
I just need time to figure things out and get me out of this depression.
Love you all and thank you for listening and understanding.
Please don't be offended if I don't answer. Thanks in advance.
