Finding the "New" Normal...

I don't know if anyone reads this and I am hoping my story helps others cope with the loss of a spouse.

I am not sure when it is ok to move on from the Death of Rick.  But I have had to do a lot of thinking of when the perfect time is to move on.  I thought I found someone who has thought of me as Beautiful even though I have psoriasis.  That guy turned out to be a catfisher.  But I have had to struggle a lot with all of this and I went into a very dark place.  I wasnt sure if I would recover from that and I would have to take my own life to make it easier for everyone.  Let me clarify....I AM NOT SUICIDAL.  I thought it would take the pain away.

I am now seeing this really great guy who calls me beautiful and sees beyond the psoriasis. 

When I say I need to find the new normal...That doesnt mean that I will forget my husband or not love him anymore.  It just means that I need to cope without Rick here.

I have been going to E-Free Church and I feel like I have found my home church.

Is anyone out there reading this?

Talk later
Shelley