As I sit and ponder the grieving process of losing Rick. I am sad when I think he will never see his grandkids and he will never be able to build anything with his son. He will miss a lot of things. I was looking forward to growing old with him. He was my everything.
I was hanging with some friends yesterday and I have been looking for signs that Rick is still around and if he is ok and if he is still with me.
I was told yesterday that Rick doesnt want me to get stuck in Grief. He doesnt want me to be lonely and that I should move on.
I feel really guilty when I think about moving on because honestly I feel like I am cheating on him even though he has passed. But knowing he doesnt want me to get stuck gives me a sense of relief.
Many think that if you move on after a spouse passes that you do not love them. I am here to tell you that this is false. I love Rick. I will always Love Rick. And my love for someone else will be really different. I will always have Rick in my heart. I am sad that he is gone but I know he will always watch over me.
I am not sure if anyone is reading this but I hope it helps
Thanks
Shelley
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