My life as a widow

I have said on many occasions...i am 36 and i should not be a widow.  But the truth is I am.  I may not always like the title but if I wasnt a widow, I would not have been married to the most amazing man in the world.  Rick Washko.

My life as a widow has been a struggle and I have had a lot of support along the way and I know deep down Ricks love was so powerful in me and it is what keeps me going along with my fur babies.

I have needed a lot of courage and strength to get up every morning and get dressed for work.

I have lost other family members and this has been the hardest person for me to lose.

It isnt fair that my spouse is gone and other spouses are not.

Im not saying I wish for your spouses to be dead too, I just wish I had one more day with him to at least have the chance to say goodbye.  Tell him how much I love him and how much he means to me and our fur babies.  I feel very cheated out of not being able to say goodbye.

I hope and pray nobody has to go through this but if u do please join a griefshare group.  It helps to talk out my feelings and I love the friends I have made.

Love u all,
Shelley