Triggers

I have become more aware of my triggers.

It may be a picture, it may be a song, it may be a night out or it may be a certain food.

I miss him everyday and I sometimes do not want to keep going, but I do.

You are more prone to missing your loved one by thinking of all the memories you have done together and pictures of you with your loved one.

I am grateful for the years that was spent with him.  So I am going to be frank and say that it makes me sad when people ask "if I only knew I had 11yrs with him would I still marry him" and my answer is always yes.   The last 11 years were the best years of my life and I am grateful he chose me to spend his last years with. 

I miss him every single day and I was very proud, grateful,  and lucky he chose me.

I always saw it in his eyes that I was the only girl in his world.   It was my privilege to have been his wife and I wouldn't change a thing.   I love u Rick.   You are my everything. 

Will write soon,
Shelley