It has been 193 days since he passed.
I dont understand grief sometimes. It comes in waves and some days your are fine and some days you are an emotional wreck.
The things that most of you do not understand when losing a spouse is that half of the living spouse's heart dies along with them.
I found an amazing support group and a counselor who is helping me through alot.
Rick not only was the love of my life but he was my safety. What I mean about that is that at 19 something bad happened and it has gotten to the point with me that I needed to know where Rick was in a public place at all times or I would have a panic attack.
With him not being here it is becoming more difficult to feel safe in public. I am working on it but he made it easier to deal with it.
Most days I am crying at the littlest things and I dont know why. Something will hit me and I will cry.
I long for the days when this gets easier but I dont see that happening anytime soon.
I will write later
Shelley
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